haix..feeling super.. feel like crying.. but now its all about controlling..
10:07 PM Friday, September 25, 2009
Have you ever been wrongly accuse? yes Have you ever been betrayed? no.. Have you ever feel heart broken? yes Have you ever feel disappointed? unquestionably Have you ever feel like your are helpless? yes Have you ever wanna disappear from the crowd? yes Have you ever feel left out? yes Have you ever felt like you have gone crazy? yes Have you ever feel like giving up? absolutely Have you ever felt like you are already trying your best but you just can't get what you want no matter how much effort you put into it? not exactly.. Have you ever felt the guts to go against the crowd? no.. Have you ever felt like no one understand you at all? definitely Have you ever dream of finding your true love? yes
12:42 AM Friday, September 18, 2009
i hate headaches! It's unbearable.HUR =.= i can't find a suitable blogskin to change! it's so frustrating.. BUT the good thing is that I have no school on friday, monday and tuesday :) a long long weekend for me i guess i would change my blogskin and update my blog on more events tomorow tomrorow's post is going to be long long long, be prepared :D post of ranting, sharing and everything else good night sweet dream sleep tight readers.
6:17 AM Monday, August 24, 2009
hello peeps..
its 6.18 am of a monday morning..
finally going bck to sch after many days...
the air is so stink,...
i guess its due to the incinerator around jurong area
didn't go school for the past 2 days.. down with fever, flu and bad headache.. so bored at home.. im fine with anything about being sick except eating medicine! blex.. cant go school until monday :( 14 days to prelims.. 2 more days till O level FNN COURSEWORK A is over.. dont know what to type anymore.. good night gg to sleep..
6:07 PM Tuesday, August 18, 2009
hello peeps..
im currently on the bus using dori's lappy to post..
the sbus journey seems so long when it hasen rewally starte..
not feeling really good right now
havuing bad headache and hopefull my temeprature does n ot increase (cross my fingers nand pray)
tody had eng remedial which was totally boring..stone the whole lsson because of nthe headache..
after that i went to cosy corner with pz and marna. .
he aunty gave me the food i did not order again!
buts actusally its ok..hahas;/
felt like puking after eating..
laid on the table and slept or twenty minutes while pz ansd marina use
this lappie to go topsho and see clothes.
normmaally i would go to thecandie shop besid cosy corner but i went home
afte;r eating..
now i am here typing this blogger standing weith many people looking at me..
heh
and there is two tall guys behind straing at me =.=
thats all i shall type for now if im better i will post a more positive post later byes!
sorry for the many typo..
today had english ree
10:00 PM Saturday, August 15, 2009
Your beauty should not come from outward adornment(decoration), such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 1 Peter 3:4
If we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. So, whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord. Romans 14:8
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.Galatians 5:22-23
7:44 PM Tuesday, August 11, 2009
nice but emotional song..
7:36 PM Monday, August 10, 2009
10TH AUGUST 2009
erina watching tv:)
erina and my blanket
displaying a grumpy face.
hahahahas
where are you??i cant see anything
wahahas XD
blur erina
watching tv attentively
8TH AUGUST 2009
my sister
SMILES :D
7TH AUGUST 2009
cheryl:)
twist.
pauline lee peggy:D
6TH AUGUST 2009
my books nicely arranged on the dining table :)
hello peeps! back after many months :) busy with studies and stuff thats why never come online and blog for a long time:D is my blogskin nice? :DD
yesterday was busy changing blogskin and had not time to post so im back today!
7TH OF AUGUST 2009
had half day celebration in school its was quite boring compared to last few years cheryl talked about divded loyaltly.hahas. how undivided we were during mass singing last year celebrating national day in st margarets.. Anyway, Happy Belated National Day everyone! hahaas
9TH AUUGST 2009
spent my national day in church with erina;studying! hehe :) had fun in church met ben yen unexpectedly he taught me maths and call me stupid.tsk hahahas== i did biology and maths:) 8.22pm! did you guys say the pledge??? me and erina totally forgot about it but my mother reminded us just on time! we stop whatever we were doing and said it although we said it but we didnt put our fist to our heart hehe but still we said it four times!! ROFL hahahahas. i made erina recite the pledge again and again because she cannot remember it its so funny! hahahahs
10TH AUGUST 2009 planned to wakeup at 9am to study but procrasinated until 12.30.heh studied for one hour then erina came to my house from tuition! i drilled her to study and i did myself too! hhahas felt a sense of satisfaction today i studied 1/4 chapter of venice 3/4 chapter of governance in singapore more than 3/4 of a chemistry paper actually its not much.. i could have done better.. mom cooked a few dish and we ate dinner at 5 plus lols.first time eat dinner so early. erina left at 6 and im here bloggin:D haven touch audition for a long time until yesterday gg to play for half an hour after i press PUBLISH POST~! :) i guess thats all~ i forgot what i wanted to typed.. oh ya.just to remind YOU i wont argue with you from now anymore firstly, because i think its stupid secondly, because i know arguing wont solve any problems thirdly, because I AM NOT LIKE YOU!
anyways, bye peeps!! see you soon :D tag my blog more and make it alive! LIVIN 4 THE LORD AND NOT FOR MAN~!
7:14 PM Saturday, July 18, 2009
grrrrrr i cant stand how spoilt she is! cannot tahan to the extend i have to leave and go somewhere else for once i sat there at the dining table thinking she would learn to behave better since she has a maid now but the next thing i knew she wanted a cup of ice lemon tea i told her she could get it aft she finish eating then she turn to her maid and said "i want ice lemon tea" her maid replied: "aft you finish eating" then shermaine replied: 'mom(her mother), let me drink,help me take! the maid looks at her with the o.0 face then looks at me the next moment shermaine gives a threatening look to the maid and stand up and intends to find her mother (to complain) then her maid have no choice but to say okokok,i take for you LIKE WTHWTHWTHWTH cant tahan GRRRRRR
9:45 PM Thursday, July 9, 2009
Hello peep~ Happy Birthday to myself ROFL hahahahas Thanks peeps for the birthday wishes and gifts muchly appreciated XD
7th July 09
Erina and I went to mac to eat aft school :) took a few pictures (:
because i took the wrong type of sauce which erina didnt want so I played with it in the end haha :)
erina face expressions say 'hmph!' i cant be bothered with you anymore.
8th July 09
chip, dori, amanda and erina had a sudden outing at seoul garden~ so we went!:) had lots of fun XDD ragged many past like the fishball terror hahahahahas history did not repeat itself for the first time:) because of SOMEBODY i laugh till i cry tears rolled down my cheeks clishe(sp?) hahahahas now i believe the phrase laugh until cry ate lots and lots and lots of food!! big plates and big plates of beef! after eating for about 2 hours, ate finish and left seoul Following, had stomach-ache :x pain >< i guessed i ate too much raw beef and pork heh went shopping at bugis left chip, dori and amanda and went with erina to iluma the new shopping centre! very nice.shopped and shopped chip played with my hair in between while shopping was damn tired but i still enjoyed myself XD dori and chip bought a SUPERCOOL phone heh Thanks so much for spending time with me Here are the pictures! xD
Chip tie into a bundle :)
let down my hair.
how do i look?
chip moving here and there trying to take different angles
hahahas.
she says i got nice hair.
really meh?
blex!
9th July 09
had school today D: lots of ppl wished me :) hahahas thanks everyone :DD after school.. went to sixth avenue with dori,shermin, marina, peizhen and dori ate at venezia ate food and icecream :) soon later dori and peizhen left then cheryl left for tuition me, marina and shermin chatted and study and play hahahas 6 o clock came everyone left went out to eat with mother and sister at jackplace @ anchor point i guess i was the only one who really enjoyed it.. i will let the pictures do the talking! :DD took pictures with my sister for the first time after a long time Thanks everyone once again :)
I used to think that I could not go on And life was nothing but an awful song but i know the meaning of life If I can see it, then I can do it If I just believe it, there's nothing to it I believe I can fly I believe I can touch the sky I think about it every night and day Spread my wings and fly away I believe I can soar I see me running through that open door I believe I can fly See I was on the verge of breaking down Sometimes silence can seem so loud There are miracles in life I must achieve But first I know it starts inside of me If I can see it, then I can do it If I just believe it, there's nothing to it
8:18 PM Saturday, July 4, 2009
AIYA.. I GIVE UP!
11:26 PM Thursday, July 2, 2009
YOU GUYS DONT KNOW ANYTHING! SHUTUP!
6:54 PM Wednesday, July 1, 2009
hey peeps. back again! june holidays are over.. didn't much enjoy myself didnt do much except went out once first day of school was okok lah.. boring as usual.. for three straight days, after school friends have been coming over to my house.. played,slacked and studied abit.. today, dori came over we talked to ahem, watched videos, laughed together and did many stuff now she is fast asleep on my sofa hahahas. on the way home together.. i blabed out my worries and trouble to dori.. sighs.. i also not very sad or happy that things have to be like tt you think i enjoy myself breaking this friendship? == even she think i should do tt.. how.. i received my coursework part B on the second day of sch.. like WTH? this year's coursework part B pretty difficult coursework part A not even done.. ohmy.did i fall in love with him or smth.. gosh== but anyway im gues im gg let him go. too many things to bother anymore..
incompleted post..
2:02 AM Tuesday, June 23, 2009
haix.. im really tired of these.. i dont know what to do anymore so many times i feel like giving up.. breakdown and cry but.. smth makes me not give up everytime.. those friends, those things.. May God shall continue to be my source of strength! insipred by many meaningful and nice christian songs taking a look wont harm,will it?
10:55 PM Saturday, June 20, 2009
hi peeps. back again! went to study with MH at Jurong East Library today stayed in the library from 11.30am-6.30pm i studied a total of 5 1/2 hours ! feel so proud of mysef man :DD yay! had fun with MH <33 size="1">but the trip didnt end very well.. even audition couldnt not save the ambience.. lost all the mood and felt even more upset. noone.nothing i could do. its .. ate maggie mee for dinner :/ cos mom lazy to buy food downstairs and watch CD; night at the museum! total forgot the story line which i normally would never forget.. night at the museum was hilarious and interesting! laughed and laughed after the show, felt happier: DD log into audi and played ONE game -.= one game and... then mom asked me to bath== Thank God for the humorous & different ways he can make ppl happy when they are upset. hahahas.AMEN! God is indeed a humorous God marina and I can definitely support that stament haha(inside jokes) however again it didnt last for long.. i pray it did.. now blogging,ending the day like that TT haix.. hope tomorow will be a better day..
finally my cough syrup bottle is empty
hiphiphorray!
12:50 PM Thursday, June 18, 2009
bitch.you just totally pissed me off FREAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK feel like just walking out of this house! HELL == AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
11:27 PM Monday, June 15, 2009
exhausted after a day of baking! marina and I baked chocolate truffle cake yumyum:) we had lots of fun and laughter while baking :DD we both agreed that God is a humourous God hahahahahahas cut the long story short i'll tell you peeps next time why:) will post the picture of the truffle cake tmr:DD or some other day:) being sick is not a good thing at all:( coughing continously like hell.. haix. sore throat is another thing to trouble about.. :( many people also sick sadded. Pray tt we will all get well soon!!!! Thank you God for everything. AMEN.
11:13 AM
hello peeps~ back after 2 days:) still sick haix :( visiting doc tmr hope nth serious this few days so boring.. COURSEWORK is KILLING me !!!!!!!!!!!! nth much to say. byebye
6:25 PM Saturday, June 13, 2009
i hate it ! i hate it ! i hate it! its just so irritating why does it have to be this way.. .. parents just 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 爱面子 dont give birth to children lah! haix.. how i wish i wasnt born in the first place after all.. sometimes i wish my friends could become my parents.. more love, more fun, more of everything.. than i wont have this kind of feeling anymore..
12:09 AM
11 Jun
damn it. fever,sore throat,cough,headache,flu =-= spent most of today in sch sleeping and slacking had fever in the morning but was not allowed to go home.. our sch changed the temp(of considering fever) to 38.1 first period was maths, 2 hours! instead of Mrs Low teaching us people from NUS came to tutor us.. sort of.. Mrs Low left for another class did 10 long questions of maths cannot tahan slept until lesson was over went for recess felt like puking whatever i ate seriously.. oily food.. than had biology bio was the only lesson i was seriously listening too:) after bio class,went to sickbay for 3 hours following,was suppose to go home but i went to computer lab to find erina and yn end up staying there until 5.45.. felt better aft 3 hours of sickbay and time spent in the computer lab :D
12 Jun
did not go school today :/ missed 3 hours of fnn supposed to pass up coursework.. still incomplete yet.. dk what to do.. although i wasnt really feeling good went for a event called PLAYMAX! which i signed up long ago had a whole lot of fun :DD i loved stagemax the most our group won a $30 ben and jerry voucher will upload few pics soon:) and update more on this event fever subsided already i guess the flu virus miraculously healed by itself the sore throat is becoming worst.. guess i will drink buckets of water like someone advice me ;) blex. gg spending my whole saturday doing my courswork.. boring. byes~ hibernating time
i have put my pride aside when will you?
3:22 AM Tuesday, June 9, 2009
hello peeps~ back from 4 day 3 night church camp:) from friday morning to monday morning! woohooo..pretty fun had quality time with the kids especially the tots:DD loooovvvveeee them like heaven XD shagged. slept from 5 to 12 today when i got home. yayaya,i know im a pig.heh :) we went to marina barrage on saturday and everyone played like hell had water actvities,aft was free and easy time so the kids and I played in the water from 2.30 all the way to 5! then they showered and I changed because there was no time for teachers to bath after that travelled to ECP to BBQ :DD the weather that God gave was amazing! Everyone sat on the mat eating chicken wing,satay,chicken culet and marmallow aft that enjoy the beatiful sky and the see breeze in the evening the sky was pink and blue,with the not so bright moon and in the night the moon was shining brightly in the dark blue sky we could hear the tides of the sea swashing up and down An outing we never would forget. Thanks for cooking the food for us! after eating,we had to prepare the tots from talent night so we decided to sing three songs for talent night our tots ranged from 2 to 6 years olds to sing them sing and pratice was a wonderful thing:) we sang the following: 1) God has taught us to be faithful 2) I love you Jesus,deep down in my heart 3) Jesus loves me this I know
the first song was pretty new to me but i felt the lyrics was meaningful even thought it only has 6 lines. I want to introduce this song to you peeps! :) (sang in the tune of twinke twinkle little star) The lyrics goes.. God has taught us to be faithful Obey God and parents too God loves us, we love him too God will save those who are faithful God has taught us to be faithful Obey God and parents too! the kids who attended this camp was so adorable!!!!!!! hope they will attend citykids everyweek and learn more and more about his words AMEN! This camp was a breakthrough for many Thank God for everything:) ....................................................... sorry for tt sudden call on thursday night crying and sobbing over the phone i just want to say thank you for all those comforting words :) lurbs you lots <33 ....................................................... I LOVE ALL PEEPS WHO ARE MY READERS! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD BYES<33333333333333333333333333333
8:06 PM Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I only have 2 words 6 letters 1 meaning for you-grow up.
7:02 PM
Lord I know the weaknesses i found in me will be stripped away by the power of your love. AMEN!
9:37 PM Monday, June 1, 2009
Some say you're just a good man Some say you are kind Some say you are in the grave But I say you're alive Some say you're just a prophet Some say you were wise Some say you were just a man But I say you are God You are my God I will shout your fame to all the earth I will lift your name on high And the world will know your greatness You are my God I will shout your fame I know you're the Messiah You gave your life for me And I know you're the only way Jesus you're my God You are my God I will shout your fame to all the earth I will lift your name on high And the world will know your greatness You are my God Jesus I will shout your fame to all the earth I will lift your name on high I will show the world your goodness As I live a life that shouts your fame As I live a life that shouts your fame Jesus I decide to live Live a life that shouts your fame Shout your fame Jesus I decide to live Live a life that shouts your fame Shout your fame Jesus I decide to live Live a life that shouts your fame Shout your fame Jesus I decide to live Live a life that shouts your fame Shout your fame shouts your fame shouts your fame shouts your fame shouts your fame
2:19 PM
hello peeps!! back after another 3 days of MIA-ness :DDD feeling super high now but dont know why : / hahahahahas im glad chinese Os are over! hope i dont need to retake :) meeting erina at jurong library later,yipee :DD many things happen these few day :) im happy for those which were good but im not really sad about the bad things fortunately heh :D have been gg out recently to study with mh at library study! study! study!
-Goodluck! -All the best for today's MT paper! -Remember to destress before you step into the examination hall -Faith my friend, comes from within yourself.Look deep inside you for the potential and combine it with HIS blessings -Good luck for your chinese!you can do it! Must have confidence in yourself -All the best on monday!
thank you guys for de encouragment :)
not talking to you is a relief for me. i dont want to say things to hurt you cos im not like you!
BYE! :D
7:48 PM Thursday, May 28, 2009
I'm trading my sorrow I'm trading my shame I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord I'm trading my sickness I'm trading my pain I'm laying it down for the joy of the Lord yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Yes Lord yes Lord yes yes Lord Amen! I'm pressed but not crushed persecuted not abandoned Struck down but not destroyed I'm blessed beyond the curse for his promise will endure And his joy's gonna be my strength Though the sorrow may last for the night His joy comes with the morning
8:07 PM Saturday, May 23, 2009
hello peeps~ changed blogskin(: i evn edited the original html looks abit weird to me now the background colour was suppose to all white but i changed it black if not looks too plain there is problem with the links i cant fix! anyone help?? : / yesterday went to healthzone at health promotion board after lessons! which ended at 1.30 with MINHUI and PAULINE (: we had alot of fun yea especially in the relaxation room hahahas will update the pictures soon :) pauline totally camwhored XD its been a long time since the number of juniors online is zero amazing. today minhui and i went to jurong east library to study! had fun studying,playing and moving house here and there. hehe i finally took a picture of minhui smiling! yups :DD reached home at 5.45 slacked for awhile and played audi for one hour gg to do my pile of mountain chinese homework after i post: / more of studying tomorow in church :x and SUNDAY SCHOOl :DD 13 more days to CHURCH CAMP!! but it also means.. 7 more days to O level CHINESE :( AND 21 more days to stop going sunday school and going to lync :( i dont want those day to come:( ... PAULINE LEE!! GIVE ME THE PICTURES FOR 5TH JUNE! :D byes everyone~
7:37 PM Friday, May 22, 2009
in love with this song <3333
7:37 PM Wednesday, May 20, 2009
hello peeps~ ohmygosh! todays intensive was really INTENSIVE cannot stand it. 8am-5pm! with only one hour break in between started to became restless at 3 plus.. vent my restlessness at cara heh. sry : / all the stress has made me have craving for salty and sweet foods like potato chips and chocolate :) heh, i think i have put on weight man. its been only two days since i saw a doctor and i have already eaten two things im not suppose to eat :x Today many children boarded the bus while I was on the way home I felt very happy even though i wasnt really happy.. Their smiles on their faces just brought a smile to my face too i love them for making me happy (: While i was walking home from the busstop I alighted i ALMOST STEPPED on a white DOG! he laid on the floor like it was dead and he totally camoflaged with the WHITE floor hahahahas so dangerous after it realise i almost stepped on him it suddenly jumped and stared at me then walked away i thought it would bite me : / phew~ thats all.. bye..
4:38 PM Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I survived the second day of chinese INTENSIVE :D and survived the second day of eating the horrible medicine :x pretty ridiculous har after eating one cup of medicine, eating three chocolate merci sticks hahas.hehe.hoho intensive is just plain boring today have 公函and私函 to do.. haix.. 一天之内两次一场欢喜一场空 :( why is it all happening now.. long wished someone would go with me but at the end she decided not to.. recently many people are sick but I know God will put his healings hands on them and heal them all! :) today also played with shermin audi :D had fun^^ hope to play with shen later too *SMILE WIDE WIDE* thanks for the letter annie(: love you lots too must study hard arh! jy! thats all~ cant be bothered to type more for it has already dampered the mood. 10 MORE DAYS OF CHINESE INTENSIVE! :( JiAYoU eVeRyOnE!
11:13 PM Monday, May 18, 2009
hello peeps~ i still cant find time to show you how busy 4E/5N are heh in summary of today chinese INTENSIVE was BORING! & gross chinese medicine i must take for A WHOLE WEEK. == I CANT WAIT TILL 5-8 OF JUNE!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD SUNDAY SCHOOL CAMP! <3333333333333333333333
10:09 PM Sunday, May 17, 2009
hello peeps.. have many things to post about today.. the many events coming up and the PACKED CHINESE INTESIVE! D: but there is no time. shall blog about everything tmr (:
11:16 PM Friday, May 15, 2009
I wish that I had a somewhat better mother and father....
7:24 PM
ahh~ finally the computer back into my own hands after 6 hours today minnhui, erina, pauline and yining came my house! to bake banana muffin :) its nice but not as nice as the christmas party one :D had fun XD but that feeling and the feeling will forever remain the same.. ...
4:13 PM Thursday, May 14, 2009
hello peeps. today's sucha boring day went to school at 1 plus to hand in a PATHETIC travel declaration form== everyone is out to play :( i found many very interesting song on youtube(: hahahas like blessed the chorus goes like I am blessed, i am blessed From when I rise up in the morning Till I lie my head to rest I feel you near me You soothe me when im weary Oh Lord for all the worst and all the best I am blessed
I realise how blessed I am now compare to many people in the world who have no love, no food, no shelter over their heads lets pray for them (:
1:38 PM
I may never climb a mountain So I can see the world from there I may never ride the waves And taste the salty ocean air Or build a bridge That will last a hundred years But no matter where the road leads One thing is always clear
I am blessed, I am blessed From when I rise up in the morning ' Til I lay my head to rest I feel You near me You soothe me when I'm weary Oh Lord for all the worst and all the best I am blessed All along the road less traveled I have crawled and I have run I have wandered through the wind and rain Until I found the sun The watching eyes ask me why I walk this narrow way I will gladly give the reason For the hope I have today I am blessed, I am blessed From when I rise up in the morning 'Til I lay my head to restI feel You near me You soothe me when I'm weary Oh Lord for all the worst and all the best I am blessed You've given me joy You've given me love You give me strength When I want to give up You came from heaven To rescue my soul This is the reason I know, I know
I am blessed, I am blessed From when I rise up in the morning 'Til I lay my head to rest I feel You near me You soothe me when I'm weary Oh Lord for all the worst and all the best I am blessed I am blessed
8:39 PM Wednesday, May 13, 2009
right now,i feel bamboozled.. i dont know what to do i dont know how to open my mouth and ask for permission.. for me, its easier said done try to be me. you wouldnt like it no-one understands.. they just think i dont want to go dont want to go dont want to go but i cant go cant go cant go feel so dissapointed.. nobody knows anything.. how bout saying just dont tell your mother and go! .. i dont know how i am going to bear this consequences i dont want things that happen before to happen again i dont like the pain, the crying and the shit. i want my fredoom..who doesn't? which bird would not fly out if the cage door is open? but my is close what am i suppose to do.. not even you understand.. i dont know where to put all these stuff it back all into my heart? or pour it out onto someone? i really feel like giving up sometimes like just say to yourself FORGET VERA YOU CANT DO IT but some songs gives me the inspiration.. im trying hard i dont know how long can i hold on.. i dont want to let go those slippery butter fingers off the railing if not ... sometimes i envy those ppl who get everything they want.. i ask God why cant i be the same.. i dont get any reply.. everything is holding me back i still have many many things to worry about i dont know.. i dont know... i dont know..
10:50 PM Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Hiies! I'm pauline here! I've come to help vera gan the bangszxc. she so cute ^^v Vera! how you link all th acc tgt de? TEACH ME. ahahhahs, this is what she asked me help her post. Nargh. I so good :D
LOVES, PEGGY.
-I'm not a good friend but I am not bad.- Vera loves Pauline. JUST LIKE HOW PEGGY LOVES ARMPIT AND HER ^^ MWAKMWAK (L)
Q1) Can S(haron) and H( arjeet) be together? no lesbianism.lols.is there such word? Q2) How is L(ouis) related to you? friend :D Q3) Does D( ori) know W(anyi)? haha.of course.classmates for 3 years :) Q4) If Z(hixuan) betrays you, will you kill him/her hahahas,nope. Q5) If Y(uelin) steal ur boyfriend/girlfriend , what will you do ? erm..snatch it back?! Q6) What if C(elina) tells you , he/she has a crush on you ? i will laugh out loud and faint. Q7) Will you & N(eela) gets into a fight ? yups.but its those kind where we both have fun XD hahas Q8) Who does A(mandachew) like? hmm..some guy lor.. Q9)If S(haron) call you a bitch , what will you do I'll bitch her back and slap her.heh. Q10)What is the relationship between you and G(race) ? church friends and schoolmates :)) Q11) Who does B(enyen) like ? hmm..i dont know.some girl Q12) Who is L(ouis)'s best friend ? i dont know leh :/ Q13) What color does H(arjeet) like? 我不知道.. Q14) Where does K(aori) live ? toe par yo XD Q15) Did you and E(rina) had a fight before? yup. Q16) How do you find about F(arjana) ? fun, fantastic and friendly (: Q17) Say something about T(imonthy)? can i say more than one thing? ^^ he's cute and handsome.and he's mine! Q18) What if M(arina) tell you that he/she had a crush on you ? hahahas.it will never happen :)
5:26 PM Saturday, May 9, 2009
slightest of the wind blow towards me yet i feel so cold.. cold sweat..
8:24 PM Friday, May 8, 2009
i am sorry i dont know what else to say to you already i dont know what words i say tt will pleases you or not or what action tt is acceptable to you i dont know whether should i try again. when i have thought it out then maybe.. if not,thats the end of it. hopefully not. i dont wish to forgo this friendship just like that like it never happened before. today had bio exam, exam was shit. walked to coro with yining erina minhui and pauline to eat after exam ate,after that headed home. erina followed me home! (((: we baked brownie for erina's mother for mothers' day hahahahas. we met a lot of difficulties on the way but we had equally much fun we had the most fun doing the icing for the brownie! :DDD On Behalf of all children in the world HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY! sighs
7:07 PM Thursday, May 7, 2009
haix.today is another boring day~ never go school.heh studied and studied and studied and studied vera is losing her attention span after 6 hours of studying.. if you never allow yourself to get humilated before, you would never grow. try putting others before your pride.and yourself. thats all i have to say. zai jian <33
3 more days to SUNDAY! :DDDD
3:59 PM Wednesday, May 6, 2009
ORANGE ALERT HAHAHAS everytime when i want to post up something i always hesitate posting at the combine blog.. why? today was a ... day dry,boring and gross. when i reached home, played audi with kaori and pauline for a while khai talk to me online after a longlong period of time what should i do about him? nicole also suddenly called me after a long long time i really miss her but i didnt want to be her calefare in her life so i just stop expecting her to call me or sms me.. is this friendship going to last if we make up? i'll leave everything into God's hand ba.. i received many mails when i log into msn today 3 of it regarding the h1n1 virus i just realise its orange alert, red alert and black alert respectively not yellow alert, orange alert and red alert i thought its traffic light hahas. sighs if it reaches red alert, there would no sunday school :( because scared the virus will be spread to the children but maybe there would be no school as well :) heh. mid-year exams are going to be over soon 8 papers down, 5 papers more to go jiayou everyone! what are friends? why did God made friends? who are your friends? how do you differentiate friends from foes? where are your friends? when are they suppose to be there? : /
1:39 PM Tuesday, May 5, 2009
shitty man my mom's going to kill me if she finds out i didnt off the computer for the whole of last night waste so much electricity. hehe imagine the bill coming in 00 I am going to open a new blog peeps! haha its going to contain................................ videos i introduce you guys to watch (: or maybe songs to hear :) or movies/drama serials to watch :D heh i totally screwed my chemistry paper i felt even more screwed when i saw her retarded bittergourd face == *cross my fingers amd hope to die* just hope i could use masking tape and tapes my mother's face so she would not say anything about anything tata! gtg study in 16 minutes meanwhile I'll play audi yippe XD
Prayer Requests:
1) Pray for everyone that everyone would stay healthy because of the H1N1 virus 2) Wait..Pray for God's blessings that it wouldn't even spread to Singapore 3) Pray for everyone now who are taking exams 3) Pray for Aunty Jane and her family because her father-in-law just passed away (05/05/09) 4) Pray for Aunty Connie sister's cancer situation and her salvation 5) Pray for Aunty Connie as well because she finds it difficult to cope with this situation 6) Pray for the family member's of those people who had died in mexico and other areas May God give them the strength and comfort that they will not grieve for a long time May God give everyone knowledge and strength May God's Blessing be upon everyone on earth Amen.
10:07 PM Saturday, May 2, 2009
studied for 6 hours today. yippee!! feel a sense of achievement (: although its just 5 chapters of chemistry and 1 1/4 chapters of ss this is going to continue till exams are over jyjy vera!!! vera can do it wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
7:11 PM
FREAK.
although i feel upset that she walked out of this friendship.. maybe too quiet from all the noise she used to make in my life i somehow feel more peaceful and less worried that she will unknowngly create unhappiness and discontent
10:20 PM Thursday, April 30, 2009
hello peeps! change blogskin(: and add my fav song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tagg more often XD <3333333333333
i would like to dedicate this song to all my friends hahahas.vera edited the lyrics FUNNY!
An empty space An empty house A hole inside my heart I'm all alone,the rooms are getting smaller I wonder how, I wonder why I wonder where they are The days we had, the fun we spent together And oh my love I'm holding on forever Reaching for those friends that seem so far So I say a little prayer And hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue To see you once again, my friends Overseas from coast to coast To find the place I love the most Where the fields are green To see you once again, my friends I try to read I go to school I'm laughing with my friends But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking I wonder how, I wonder why I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together ohyea~ And oh my friends I'm holding on forever Reaching for those friends that seem so far So I say a little prayer And hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue To see you once again, my friends Overseas from coast to coast To find the place I love the most Where the fields are green To see you once again,my friends To keep you in my heart To assure you my trust To tell you from my heart You're all I'm worth treasuring Reaching for those friends that seem so far So I say a little prayer And hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue To see you once again, my friends Overseas from coast to coast To find the place I love the most Where the fields are green To see you once again, my friends To say a little prayer My dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue To see you once again Overseas from coast to coast To find a place I love the most Where the fields are green To see you once again,my friends
hello peeps! today there is no chinese intensive.. so i end early! but i am at the computer lab doing my fnn poster because i dont have microsoft publisher at home.. around me are all juniors.. they make me remember of the childish and innocent times i spent through secondary 1 and 2 like..ranking your friends.. best friends,good friend,okok friend and stuff.. i also see the big difference in how the juniors respect their seniors.. its not like it use to be so.. haix.. shi dai bu tong ler..
10:19 PM Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Everyone has different definitions of friends,of course. but to me.. a good friend is a friend who accompany you at the lowest point of your life to cheer you up when you are sad to laugh with you when you are happy to help you willingly when you need help without thinking of getting anything back in return that friend does not care about your outer appearance but is concern on whats inside the <3 a good friend does not want to be your friend with you just because you are famous or rich or anything like that a good friend stands on your side and fights for your rights when you get made fun of a good friend does not bother about how often you hang out with her. but puts others in 1st place before herself she does not worry or be anxious if you hang out with other people too much because she knows her friend has her own freedom of choice of who she wants to hang out with she knows she is a stand needed to support her friend she has no power to control her rights
a good friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out
7:53 PM Wednesday, April 22, 2009
yay! vera know how to sing her first japanese song :) yukinohana <3333
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULINE !
Dear Lord, I thank You for this day, I thank You for being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God. You have done so much for me and You kept on blessing me. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness. Please keep everyone safe from all danger and harm. Help everyone to start a new day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let us make the best of each and every day to clear our minds so that we can hear from You. Please broaden our mind that we can accept all things. Let us not whine and whimper over things we have no control over. And give us the best response when we are pushed beyond our limits. We know that when we can't pray, You will listen to my heart. Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak... Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that don't believe. But I thank You that I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes; that they are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God. other people have done so. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it Thank you God for pauline also may you continue to guide and lead her in your way so she may see your glory and know your power give her wisdom to make wise decision and not be easily defeated by problems she faces Give her strength and comfort when she is down Allow her to let her feel your presence and know you are there when she thinks noone is there for her in Jesus' name I pray Amen!
Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.
6:50 PM Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Stand up for Singapore-1985 Count on me Singapore-1986 We are singapore-1987/1988 One people, one nation, one singapore-1990 Searching day and night-1997 Together- 1999 Singapore Town-1999 Shine on me-2000 Where i belong-2001 We will get there-2002 Moments of magic-2002 One united people-2003 A place in my heart-2003 Home-1998/2004 Reach out for the skies-2005 My Island Home-2006 Five stars arising-2007 There's no place i rather be-2007 Will you- 2007 Shine for singapore-2008
Does all these song titles look familar or would you still remember the tunes of these songs? There are the Singapore's National Day songs from 1985-2008. These songs left of alot of good memories for me in my primary school days.just a take a few moment to watch the MV of these songs.then you would realise how lucky you are to live in singapore,so peaceful and cosy..They also give me encouragement and give me will to live on and be a good singaporean! I LOVE SINGAPORE<333
2:10 PM Friday, April 17, 2009
.. why did i even to start to bother about what ppl think about me. i wasn't like tt,i grew to become like tt y? i start to wonder.when i walk away from the group are they talking about me? when i meet them after sch, did they talk bad about me today. it does not mean majority of the clique does not like HER then i have no choice but to follow i have my own choice tof freedom to choose who i want to be friends with its none of your business!! and just tt you see me hanging out with her, you all ignore me, roll eyes and and stuff. you know how irritating you all can be sometimes just noone mentions it to you thats all! you dont know how it feels to be left out in a group or anything like tt. you just talk about your korean stuf,koreans tuff and more korean stuff! im not going to make you deprive me of tt you just jolly well accept the fact that im still friends with her or GET LOST! even a basic acceptance you cant do it what kind of friend would you be? it just tells me you are totally SPOILT! everytime when i come your class, you just display that sucky bittergourd face whats the problem with you??? when you are very happy then you laugh and hug each other shout and even scream then when you are emo or sad or tired,you just... you even tell ppl to control their temper and emotions yet you cant do it yourself sometimes! i have much other things to worry about then all these STUPID things i need to study. i cant do it if i continue to feel like that. 911. today had some karoke sessionwith shermin and cheryl, we had lots of fun hearing them sing and singing quietly today was a totally meaningless day we celebrated international friendship day which was boring and exciting and we had one period of english which we didnt do much but received nagging from mrs seet one period of chemistry which mrs pillai could not come into class. one period of recess to eat of course.i join marina and gang for recess today(: one period of ss which ms ng did not come.a relief teacher came in two period of maths which mrs low was not here!because she went for SYF with gym girls after that we had contact time, mr koh had to treate celeste and dori lunch! hahahas then we had assembly.talk about environmental conservation and some arst thing sharon suddenly vommited, frighten everyone.. take care ya.Get Well Soon! God Bless.hope you have a speedy recovery after assembly went to sickbay to visit sharon and was totally pissed. now in the computer lab typing all these feeling.... if i really had the choice i wish i knew nothing about sadness,anger,loneliness. just feeling happy all the time during school and go home and study. i cant do it. maybe what erina said was right..all these are all just excuses i dont know.. i wished to show out all my unhapiness without anyone asking what happened i dont want to explain the history which is not worth mentioning. i wish i would meet God sooner. but god has a destined life planned for me. until the day which he take me home. some sick virus is passing all over the class. everyone one is starting to fall sick! .. 3 more days to pauline and jonathan's birthday i hope it would a happy one for them Happy Birthday in Advance(: speechless.i dont know what more to say about all those things am i saying too much and not doing anything about it? i HATE being emo and caring about all these which are uneccesary.. so much more things.. ..................
8:55 PM Tuesday, April 14, 2009
how i wish everyday i can return home feeling this happy..
i deleted the messages for the sake of him.so be glad or else you would have been assail with many ppl talking about this loser.
to celineng: hello celineng(: just ignore that lamer.this person is trying to seek attention because he/she gets none! and for a normal person if noone bothers to reply his tag.he would leave for good like when I spray pesticide on the plant and pest would DIE slowly.
to the DAMN lamer loser..cant get you want then go there and vent yr anger.cant get the girl you like,go there and talk rubbish.not gentlemen at all.you can do anything else,commit sucide for whoever else cares BUT DONT go there pester ppl, disturbing everyone who vists tat blog and wasting everyone's time.its not worth it.seriously.
lamer.i hope you see this!
7:18 PM Wednesday, April 8, 2009
You could be my unintended Choice to live my life extended You could be the one Ill always love You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions You could be the one Ill always love Ill be there as soon as I can But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before First there was the one who challenged All my dreams and all my balance She could never be as good as you You could be my unintended Choice to live my life extended You should be the one Ill always love Ill be there as soon as I can But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before Ill be there as soon as I can But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before Before you
So here we stand
In our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd
Is so far away
You take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong
So how do I say
Do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times
I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears will be lost in the rain
As I find my way back to your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart
So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down a like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again
But no matter how far (no matter how far)
Or where you may be (where you may be)
I just close my eyes (just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet
I'll always look back as I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back to your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart
I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears Wwill be lost in the rain
As I find my way back To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart
Oh yeah
You're the queen of my heart (queen of my heart)
No matter how many years it takes (queen of my heart)
i'm coming home to you
Oh yeah (queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are the queen of my heart
An empty street, an empty house A hole inside my heart I'm all alone, rooms are getting smaller I wonder h ow I wonder why I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together Oh yea~ And oh my love We're holding on forever Reaching for a love that seems so far So i say little prayer And hope my dream will take me there Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love Overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most Where the field are green to see you once again, my love I try to read, I go to work Laughing with my friends But i cant stop to keep myself from thinking Oh no~ I wonder h ow I wonder why I wonder where they are The days we had, the songs we sang together Oh yea~ And oh my love We're holding on forever, reaching for a love that seems so far So I say a little prayer and hope my dreams will take me there Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love Overseas from coast to coast to find a place i love the most Where the fields are green to see you once again To hold you in my arms To promise you my love To tell you from my heart You're what im thinking of Reaching for a love that seems so far So i say little prayer And hope my dream will take me there Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love Overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most Where the field are green to see you once again, my love Say a little prayer My sweet dream will take me there Where the skies are blue to see you once again, my love Overseas from coast to coast to find the place i love the most Where the field are green to see you once again, my love
hello. the whole day i thought about what happen yesterday so damn distracted.FREAK! i hate it. what wrong did i do? i really want to know. i dont think i did.but i dont know what you are thinking. i dont want to not be happy ok i wished that everyday i could be so happy that there would be no worries. but right now i feel like breaking down and cry. i dont want to do it. its so stupid it wont solve your problem. it wont remove the stress it wont do anything! i need someone. there is noone should i just continue avoiding such problems i'll go crazy one day these problems are never ending. ............................................. i dont want to face my problem ok. i admit it
i thought you would have known what you should do and think it out. but you didnt im really dissapointed.
8:41 PM Tuesday, April 7, 2009
i dont understand whats wrong with almost eveyone with their stupid attitude problem with their stupid mood swings that sometime dont even make them them anymore.. when they are happy they talk to you as if they need you but when they are moody they just nelgect your existance or pull a duper long face at you i hate it i feel so stupid and useless i feel that im made use of all the time i feel that i have noone to turn to except God all these are just uncessary stress brought upon by myself who can i blame or who will blame? noone but myself haix... how i wish she would just call me or sms me now.. i cant put this important thing friendship away i must learn how to..how? :( dear heavenly father, thank you for everything you have provided us always remind us of how lucky we are compare to other ppl pls heal everyone who is sick or injured heal them with your mighty hands and let them feel your presence pls bless loius and jonathan pls give them journey mercies and safety verywhere they maybe pls help them in times of difficults pls bless everyone in jesus name i pray amen lonely..
6:26 PM Monday, April 6, 2009
hello all.. back at home. today was a pretty scary and weird day although even only neela never come but.. either so many ppl fell sick today or they went home in the end. like thein,thivyya, shermin were sick AND after shareena and rena went home marina and ashley were sick alrdy sians. teranna went for band competition As the hours went by today,i felt tt lesser and lesser ppl were left in the class today sort of gen dori and peizhen nao fan. freak.YOU WANT TO GO ASTRAY I DONT REALLY CARE BUT dont i mean DONT PULL DORI INTO IT. tsk.pon class also not very glamarous, still dare shout in the library i really font know what to do about you. you lost interest in english now maths you alrdy taking CLB what do you want next?!?! ...
10:37 PM Saturday, April 4, 2009
ihatethisfeeling.
12:06 AM
life is 2009 has been different.. many post i wanted to type but i hesistated.. so i will ust delete it from my memory.. i want to 2009 to pass quickly,cos i cant stand all these nonsence anymore they seriously suck.. but yet i dont want to start missing my juniors in st margs..if 2009 pass quickly.. how? God help me.
Did you ever talk to God above Tell Him that you need a friend to love Pray in Jesus' name believing that God answers prayer? Have you told Him all your cares and woes Every tiny little fear He knows You can know He'll always hear and He will answer prayer You can whisper in a crowd to Him You can cry when you're alone to Him You don't have to talk out loud to Him He knows your thoughts. On a lofty mountain peak, He's there In a meadow by a stream, He's there Anywhere on earth you go, He's been there from the start. Find the answer in His word, its true You'll be strong because He walks with you By His faithfulness He'll change you too God answers prayer.
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10:30 PM Wednesday, April 1, 2009
hi.. wanted to post some pictures and update but my STUPID FREAK mother spoiled all the mood. asshole.
byes.
9:17 PM Monday, March 30, 2009
so lonely inside, so busy out there. all i wanted was somebody to care.
3:27 PM Saturday, March 28, 2009
hello peeps! back again! changed blogskin(: too busy to update! will be back again soon! byes.
oh ya.if you found something weird like the blogskin says worthless but yet the html name says 'i aint worth anything,cos im worth more than just that'. because i changed it(: the orginal one was 'i aint worth anything'. i wanted to chnage the word worthless to something else but it just screwed my blog more.hah so byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
8:01 AM Thursday, March 26, 2009
hello peeps! back again.. kaori asked me to do the quiz so i'm going to do it ! blogging in my school computer lab.. teacher's absent today suppose to go com lab to do coursework sighs..boring.
1.Minhui 2. Erina 3. Pauline 4. Yining 5.Charlene 6. Jasmine 7. Sharon 8. Dori 9.Khai 10. Kaori 11. Pingx 12. Rachel 13. Nicole 14. Ashley 15. Anne marie 16. Jonathan 17.Ron 18. Shermin 19. Cheryl 20. Ashley 21. Lucia
1.How did you meet 7? -from school(: 2.What would you do if you and 15 never met? -life would boring and less happy without my dear friend:D 3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? -eee.les! but they were once good friends though :) 4. Have you seen 17 cried? -nope.i only see him once before :x 5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? -nope.NEVER! hahahas 6. Do you think 11 is attractive? -hahas.hmmm..maybe.. 7. What's 2's favourite colour? -arr..pink?black?blue? :P not sure, i shall go and ask later when i see her!~ 8. When was the last time you talked to 9? -woah.it has been ages..probably one month ago? 9. What language does 8 speaks? - strictly english..hahahas.cos her chinese sucks :x 10. Who is 13 going out with? -hmm.not sure.i think she jus broke up with someone :x 11. Would you ever date 17? -hmm..nope..age gap too far..? and he's my friend's bro == 12. Where does 18 live? -Woodlands :D 13. What's the best thing about 4? -She's a good friend(: 14. What would you like to tell 10 right now? -ah hah! do this quiz again or i'll slaughter you(: and play audi less pls. 15. What's the best thing about 20? -She's very sweet and show concern for ppl she knows. 16. Have you ever kiss 2? -Nope..hahahas. 17. What's the best memories you have of 5? -many many many XD 18. When are you gonna see 4? -maybe later after school at 1.30pm (: 19. How is 7 different from 6? -one is tall one is shorter :x heh 20. Is 2 pretty? -yup! 21. What is the first impression of 15? -She is a sweet girl and loves everyone who loves her! 22.How did you meet 3? -through school and audition :DDD 23. Is 15 your best friend? -hahas.good friend<33> 24. Do you hate 12? -Nope.i dont hate anyone :D 25. Have you seen 18 in the last month? -yup! i saw her jus 1 hour ago (: 26. When was the last time you saw 16? -i never saw him before:X but i wished to soon.. 27. have you been to 5's house? -yup,many times :) 28. When's the next time you'll see 10? -idk leh.. 29. Are you close to 11? -hmm.not exactly.. 30. Have you been to the movies with 4? -nope. 31. Have you gotten into trouble with 8? -yup. 32. Would you give 19 a hug? -yup(: 33. When have you lied to 3? -18th feb :x 34. Is 11 good at socializing? -nope.i guess not..dk 35. Do you a secret about 8? -nope :( 36.Describe the relationship between12 and 18? -they dont know each other :x 37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? -To him, its not jus a friendship..hmm..it has that tranquility and stillness. 38. What's the worst thing about 6? -She's addicted to korean stuff!!! and she can't get off that addiction.. 39. Do you have a crush on 12? -nope.im not a les== 40. How long have you known 2? - 1 year and a month XD 41. Does 11 have any girlfriend/ boyfriend? -hmm.not sure.dont know leh.. 42. have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? -yes... 43. Have 21 meet your parents? -nope. 44. How did you meet 11? -Through kaori and audi :))) 45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? -nope.its always on purpose.hahas. 46. Do you close to 7? -nope.10 over mrt stops. 47. What's 8 favourite food? -fish i guess? 48. What kind of car does 1 have? -she doesnt own one but i guess her parents car is mercedes? 49. Have you travlled anywhere with 9? -nope.i told you alrdy i nv meet him before! == 50. If you gave 14 a 100 bucks, what would she/he spent it on? -buy lots of tops and bottoms :D TAG, YOU'RE IT!
10:02 PM Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Remember you are still a family.Regardless of the circumstances your family is still a family - even if it does not have two parents. There are many single parent families that are emotionally healthy. It is a matter of choice, not luck. They choose to make their families emotionally healthy, fun and one that is filled with positive memories.
4:36 PM Thursday, March 12, 2009
hey peeps! back after a long long long long time.. miss blogging so im back (: lots of pictures to post and things to update you guys but now isnt the right time.heh so i'll be back again soon~ from now on.vera is not going to let ANYONE or ANYTHING step over HER head you're going to learn from your mistakes! dammit.
8:10 PM Monday, March 2, 2009
i went on youtube and search for this song as we sang this at singpiration today..this song is really meaningful and shows how God is so good to us, that he died on the cross for everyone of us,which is not worth it.but he still did it.Hope you get touched by this song just like I did. God Bless you. *sobs*:(
11:17 PM Friday, February 27, 2009
cheer up vera(: hahahahahas there are somethings that are not within your control],leave it be:)
9:20 PM
Concentrate on this Sentence 'To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.' ?When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. ? Concentrate on this sentence... 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.' ?Something good will happen to you today; something that you have been waiting to hear.
8:36 PM Wednesday, February 25, 2009
watch this video first before viewing the lyrics of this song..
A couple inches taller Another size smaller A little curl in my hair I used to wish I was older Now I wish I was younger Back when I didnt have a care Most of the time I am happy with what God gave me Once in a while I wish that some miracle would change me I'm ok with the way God made me I have my days but doesnt everybody It's not always easy for me to believe in myself But I gotta remember I'm always gonna be a better me than anyone else And God doesn't make mistakes Mama says I'm special Calls me her little angel I could almost do no wrong But I trip and I stumble Guess that's what keeps you humble But I pick myself up and I carry on I'll never be a flawless model of perfection Nobodys perfect and I admit I'm no exception I'm ok with the way God made me I have my days but doesnt everybody It's not always easy for me to believe in myself But I gotta remember I'm always gonna be a better me than anyone else And God doesn't make mistakes I'm thankful for rainy days They only make the sunshine sweeter I'm ok with the way God made me I have my days but doesnt everybody It's not always easy for me to believe in myself But I gotta remember I'm always gonna be a better me than anyone else And God doesn't make mistakes Now God doesn't make mistakes not you not me not anybody
8:05 PM Saturday, February 21, 2009
It's not the fault of student ifhe/she fails because the year ONLYhas 365 days...
typical academic year for a student:
1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest. Days left 313.2.
2.Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study. Days left 263.
3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE. Days left 141.
4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days. Days left 126.
5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days. Days left 96.
6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days. Days left 81.
7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days. Days left 46.
8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days. Days left 6.
9. For sickness - at least 3 days. Days left 3.
10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days. 1 day left.
11. That 1 day is your birthday. How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!
Balance = 0' How can a student pass ?????'
11:48 PM Sunday, February 15, 2009
why am i thinking so much.. where did the influence come from?.. @#$%
11:32 PM Friday, February 13, 2009
hello peeeks..i'm back haix..no mood to post about what happened the past few days.. blog again someday..
12:05 AM Saturday, February 7, 2009
confused.. frustrated.. angry.. sad.. happy.. mixed feelings.. just one negative word from someone, destroy the temporary happiness in my heart.. i need help.. hello.. 911 pls. today was one of the worst media training/meetings in my whole entire 3 years left alone again because charlene didnt come.. felt so dam freaking left out i just felt like killing someone everyone has changed they are no longer they am i suppose to complete this competition all by myself? without any help? noone can help except them.. they wont help.. i wont dare to approach them either.. *tears controlled* hopefully it wont fall like a heavy rain one day.. i have no idea nowadays,what got over me i dont wish to be so emotional,no one would, unless they are sadistic.. i cant help it.. FREAK i feel life so meaningless like wake up at 6, wash up,go school,lessons,lessons,lessons,end school,go out,study,come home,bath,eat,do homework,play computer,watch tv,sleep the next day wake up at 6, wash up,go school,lessons,lessons,lessons,end school,go out,study,come home,bath,eat,do homework,play computer,watch tv,sleep and the cycle goes on and on and on and on.. with no meaning.. i guess im suppose to do something but i dont know what i feel im starting to change myself.. --------------------------------------------------------------------------- many people are falling sick .. pls keep these people in prayer: -Charlene -Sharon -Dori -Everyone in the world who is sick
May God heal them all !
9:02 PM Thursday, February 5, 2009
i think i spent more than 3/4 of life making my friends happy... but yet im not happy at all.. why is that so?
9:43 PM Monday, February 2, 2009
(男)半夜睡不着觉 把心情哼成歌只好到屋顶找另一个梦境 (女)睡梦中被敲醒 我还是不确定怎曾有动人 弦律在对面的屋顶 我悄悄关上门 带着希望上去原来是我梦里常出现的那个人 (男)那个人不就是我梦里那模糊的人 我们有同样的默契 (女)用天线 (合)用天线 排成爱你的形状Ho Ho (女)在屋顶唱着你的歌 (男)在屋顶和我爱的人 (女)让星星点缀成 (合)最浪漫的夜晚拥抱这时刻这一分一秒全都停止 (男)爱开始纠结 (女)在屋顶唱着你的歌 (男)在屋顶和我爱的人(女)将泛黄的的夜献给 (合)最孤独的月拥抱这时刻这一分一秒全都停止 (男)爱开始纠结 (合)梦有你而美 (男)半夜睡不着觉 把心情哼成歌只好到屋顶找另一个梦境 distracted.. what to do i need someone to help me.. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
9:03 PM Friday, January 30, 2009
family problems are never ending..
3:44 PM Monday, January 26, 2009
I HATE YOU!
12:33 AM
Happy Niu Year (:
5:07 PM Sunday, January 25, 2009
I SWEAR I WILL NEVER BE LIKE ANY OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS NEXT TIME WHEN I GROW UP.
8:14 PM Friday, January 23, 2009
friendships drifting.. haix..
8:35 PM Monday, January 19, 2009
hello all~ update you on my life in PICTURES (: On the 31st of December 08-went out with jiawen.had lots of fun! On the 4th of January 09-had church,took lots of pictures of the kids XD i <333> On the 6th of January 09-went to jelita with minhui after school to get the twilight book and played with our monkey friend again(: On the 7th of January 09-wanyi came back to smss to visit us.IMISSHER AND ILOVEHER! :D On the 9th of January 09-on the way home,i took pictures of the buiding which was underconstruction and covered but revealed finally after a long time.Beatiful (: On the 10th of January 09-me and my mother's friend went to orchard to see the plants for chinese new year On the 11th of January 09-went to church,saw handsome eden and my lovely kids i cant live without !!! so chubby and cute:D On the 12th of January 09-went to coronation after school,slacked around.i bought my 1200ml of water for 65 cents while minhui bought her baby pear juice which is like only 125ml for $1.25 On the 13th of January 09-took a picture of two birds standing on the lamppost making love<33> On the 14th of January 09-erina and minhui ended school early so they went to coronation to eat first.i joined them later at 4 plus..took a unglam picture of erina (: hahahahahahas. On the 15th of January 09-took a picture of a beatiful line made by the clouds in the sky.In the night,7 of us went to some high class resturant to celebrate my grandmother's 72th birthday(: ate an expensive meal,bill about $1000 bucks..that means $142 each..ex right..hahas.rich aunty :DDD talked to erina during the dinner about FNN N level coursework.*stressed,fan*LOLS.hahahas. Happy Birthday Mama!! <333 On the 16th of January 09-went to shalom room to study,i really studied but i dont know about the rest..worked hard.felt satistified XDDDD On the 18th of January 09-i think erina took a picture of my head.from what you see,it looked like a headless vera...hahahas.scary but good photography skills :) met in church SAC at 11am to study.took many pictures of the kids at JUSTkids :) On the 19th of January 09-went to KAP(king albert park) to study.hahas.something duper funny! i helped yining open her mummy..i 1 ! 2 ! 3 ! PIAK.everything flew onto the table,my maths textbook,my foolscape,my bag,the floor.hahahas :D then yining reaction was very funny too.she was like 00.so paisei make the mac crew clear up our big mess...sorry yining,for wasting your mummy.hehe. On the 20th of January 09-went to shalom to study again..erina left early for her appointment,yining went home cos she wasnt in pink of health and pauline went somewhere..hahahas.then i sang my soul out with my broken recorder voice.but IM LOVIN IT :D hahas.me and minhui laughed our heads off,enjoyed ourself.hope i can sing like that again soon..i mean openly..minhui did something hilarious too..she was doing her chemistry worksheet then the question asked.. Why is the filtrate not evaporated to dryness in step (6) her answer was ''if it is dry,the crystals will gone lah'' hahahahahahahhahahahas.so damn funny XDDDD this is how singlish can really influence in our daily life :x enough of talking..HERE ARE THE PICTURES~!! in no orderly manner :X
10:11 PM Wednesday, January 14, 2009
MEOW! i love you :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
5:30 PM Tuesday, January 13, 2009
In my mind I can climb All the mountains that surround me My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly In my heart There's a spark That can light the world around me An open door, where I am sure dreams are It doesn't matter if I win Or the colour of my skin Cause the race is all about Believing in yourself Cos I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream I can be The hero that's in me When I dream, I dream If there's a time In your life When the odds are so against you There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride First or last Slow or fast There's a dignity that makes you Keep driving on, when world's have come apart It doesn't matter rich or poor Or the things you've done before Cause the race is all about Believing in yourself I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream I can be The hero that's in me When I dream I dream Of a moment That forever will be golden When the torch is passed Only dreams will last That are shared by everyone I dream I can run Like the wind And be strong When my heart just wants to give in I dream I can be The hero that's in me I dream, I dream
i feel so usless,i dont know what to do..
5:26 PM
9:35 PM Monday, January 12, 2009
retaliating isnt what vera does.. i want to end it! because i dont know how to face it..
8:03 PM Friday, January 9, 2009
FREAK! WHY THE HECK DID I LET SUCH THING HAPPEN TO MYSELF AGAIN I HATE IT MY LIFE SUX! I SUX..
7:36 PM Thursday, January 8, 2009
hello... tears rolled down my cheeks once dori,chip and amanda alighted.. i didn't really know why,yet again.. im exhausted,im tired.. i want to give up.. but like wtf. yesterday i just learn not to give up and persevere on in the camp and im saying this now.. if this happens all the time.. the coaches will all be fired by the sch.. help me.. .......................................................................... khai in camp erina in camp. minhui also in camp.. pauline also in camp... yining ALSO in camp.. jonathan ALSO in camp.... :( kaori sleeping now.. lucia sick.. sians.. Get well soon Lucia!!! <33333
7:26 PM Wednesday, January 7, 2009
hello all~ i dont know what got over me these few days but.. its over i guess? hopefully *cross my fingers*
2th January 2009
Today was first day of school boring as expected.. hear principal talk and talk and talk and talk after headed back to class settled some admin stuff in class then totally slacked again waste time.. ==
5th January 2009
Today had english camp.. its going to be for 2 days.. sians.. only one word.. boring!
6th January
Todaythe camp continued.. sighs..
7th january 2009
Today had other studyskill camp.. we played many games overall it was quite fun.. after school, met wanyi! happy(: long time haven seen her miss her alotalotalotalotalot
Dear Heavenly Father,
thank you for another day that you have created.thank you for the friends you have made,the teachers,the coaches and everything in the world~! Please pray for guidance among the teachers and students as a new year comes..streaming,N levels and O levels.please give as the knowledge and the self-control we need to go against temptationS.please pray for the secondary 1,2,3,4 who are in their respective places having their camps.give them the joy so that they may ejnoy themselves and learn something new and give them the strength as they have been in school the whole day till 9pm.grant them journey mercies as they return home later after their camps..put your healing hands on those who are sick.not only in 5/3,in singapore but in the world.pls pray that there would be more people who will spread God's word and come to know you.for God Is Good all the time, all the time God Is Good! We lift the whole world into your hands,In Jesus I pray.Amen.
5:02 PM Monday, January 5, 2009
1 word 10 letters 2 syllabus
struggling
8:08 PM Saturday, January 3, 2009
Yo mama so fat she sat on a dollar bill and made change Yo mama's so ugly, she made a blind kid . Yo mama so cross-eyed, when she cried, tears rolled down her back Yo mama so fat when she takes a shower her feet don't get wet Yo mama so fat when she went to KFC she asked for a bucket of chicken and when cashier asked what size she w anted, yo mama said "The one on roof." Yo mama's teeth gap so big, she uses a gate for braces Yo mama so fat when she wears a yellow raincoat, people said "Taxi" Yo mama so fat she put on her lipstick with a paint-roller Yo mama so fat when she steps on a scale, it read "one at a time, please" Yo mama so fat she fell in love and broke it. Yo mama so fat when she gets on scale it says to be continued. Yo mama so fat when she gets on scale it says we don't do livestock. Yo mama so fat when she bungee jumps, she brings down the bridge too Yo mama so stupid when she saw the NC-17 (under 17 not admitted) sign, she went home and got 16 friends Yo mama so stupid that she puts lipstick on her head just to make-up her mind Yo mama so stupid that she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order! Yo mama so stupid she could trip over a cordless phone! Yo mama so stupid she asked you "What is the number for 911" Yo mama so stupid she took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept. Yo mama so stupid when she read on her job application to not write below the dotted line she put "O.K." Yo mama so stupid when she went to take the 44 bus, she took the 22 twice instead. Yo mama so greasy she used bacon as a band-aid! Yo mama has green hair and thinks she's a tree. Yo mama has so many teeth missing, it looks like her tounge is in jail. Yo mama so poor when I ring the doorbell she says,"DING!" Yo mama so bald you can see whats on her mind Yo mama so bald that she took a shower and got brain-washed. Yo mama so dark she has to wear white gloves when she eats Tootsie Rolls to keep from eating her fingers. Yo mama so dark she went to night school and was marked absent Yo mama so nasty I called her to say hello, and she ended up giving me an ear infection. Yo mama so ugly when she joined an ugly contest, they said "Sorry, no professionals." Yo mama so ugly just after she was born, her mother said "What a treasure!" and her father said "Yes, let's go bury it." Yo mama so ugly they didn't give her a costume when she tried out for Star Wars. Yo mama so ugly when she walks into a bank, they turn off the surveillence cameras Yo mama so ugly when she walks down the street in September, people say "Wow, is it Halloween already?" Yo mama so ugly they put her in dough and made monster cookies! Yo mama so ugly she tried to take a bath the water jumped out! Yo mama so old I told her to act her own age, and she died Yo mama so old her birth certificate says expired on it. Yo mama so dirty that she was banned from a sewage facility because of sanitation worries! Yo mama teeth are so yellow traffic slows down when she smiles!
thank you erina,jonathan and anne-marie for cheering me up:DD i feel much better alrdy(: i wont give up! hopefully i wont...
11:09 PM Friday, January 2, 2009
hello all here to blog for the 3rd time in a day.. i feel so upset but yet i dont really know why.. cos im too kind hearted that im alway easily bullied? from primary school until now? cos she think she can lie to me anytime even though i know she maybe kidding sometimes? cos there is no trust between you and me? cos she just left without a proper goodbye... until the day I asked her whether is she coming back to school.. she doesn’t care ? or is it she cant bear to say bye too? cos you throw tantrump to often,some of us cant take it? cos my mom is just not understanding at all? only know how to scold me and nag at me? i will never forget what she said that im useless and stupid yours scoldings and painful beatings i will forever remember and never forget i hate you or isit because i feel left out almost all the times? whether or in audi or in class? sitting there hearing everyone chatting so happily? i hate being left out ... but yet i understand my friends cant be there always talking non stop to me.. what is wrong with me?!?!?!?!?!!? i hate crying alrdy.. outcast? i dont know where to go after O's because of you even though i have a dream i want to chase would you allow? first would you even think i can make it? would you laugh? can you afford? i dont know i dont dare to say everytime because im scared that you would laugh and just walked away saying you cant make it what can i do? i dont know who to approach i dont know how to explain all these im going to cry.. but i must hold it back.. i dont know how long can i hold it back it will flow down someday i dont know why am i living.. if i knew than i would be living more happily alrdy.. minhui's not online.. neither is erina nor kaori.. lucia is in audi.. di just went offline when im typing this post.. mei is offline too.. no one to talk to.. need help in fnn coursework part b but no one can help me.. im scared.. i dont want to live in fear even typing this in fear fearing my mom would just walk out of the kitchen see me typing in blogger and just start scolding again i dont want some friends to be like that.. they're ruining their life.. they can be better people i know for sure.. i dont want some people to be like that getting into a relationship at such a young age at the end getting hurt its sure going to affect her studies... must she learn her lesson before she dares to do it again? is once bitten twice shy true?.. i dont want but i know i cant do anything to stop them now sometimes i feel people think im busybody about other people's life.. i only can say I DONT KNOW! I DONT KNOW! I DONT KNOW! :( *crying* its more than that.. feeling so cold..
11:08 PM
arh..today is first day of school.. hear the principal and teachers talk and talk so boring.. cried today.. dont know just the thought of it in 165 make my tears roll down.. i guess i missed wanyi too much.. afterall, even she throw tantrumps often i've known her for 4 years like 4 years of friendship will never be forgotten her laughters,her tantrumps,lessons she learnt(i learnt as well) everything just gone! ...
10:22 PM
When you feel unlovable, unworthy, unclean When you think no one can heal you Remember,friend,God can When you think that you are unforgivable for your guilt and shame Remember,friend,God can When you think that all is hidden and no one can see within Remember,friend,God can And when you think you have reached bottom and you think no one can hear Remember,friend,God can And when you think that no one can love you for the real person deep inside you Remember,friend,God can When things go wrong as they sometimes will When the road you are trudging seems all uphill When the funds are low and the debts are high And you want to smile but you have to sigh When care is pressing you down abit Rest,if you must,you must rest But dont you quit Success is failure turned inside out The silver tints of the clouds of doubt You can never tell how close you are It may near when it seems afar So stick to the fight when you get the hardest hit When things go wrong you MUST'NT quit
8:43 PM Thursday, January 1, 2009
GET OVER IT,WILL YOU?
3:12 AM
arh.my sis has gone mad... the whole day she give me 脸臭臭 even when jiawen was around.. then suddenly i using computer she jump out of her room saying ''HAPPY NEW YEAR!'' then she was holding two glass of white wine then she ask me take one and she cheers~! and asked me drink lols hahahahahahas :x *vera drunk* nights~ <333333333333333333333
